Updates...

I haven't been blogging for quite some time. Apart from being busy, I've been self indulged and lazy to write. Well, to start with, my fourth year anniversary just passed weeks ago, on the 4th of June, hubby gave me flowers, a card and a romantic dinner( actually not so..with Adam around) in Uzen Concorde, a Japanese restaurant. The food was exquisite despite Adam screaming and jumping around on the sofa. I managed to put on deaf ears, hahaha. I told you hubby, not to bring him along. Thank God we brought along his favourite item, a D80 Nikon camera, so he was finally tamed by it. I really enjoyed the dinner love, thanks! What coincidentally happened on the same night was the hike on fuel price! Imagine the jam hubby and I had to go through to reach Concorde, KL. Thanks Pak Lah, you just made our anniversary night even more exciting huh. We didn't bother to cue up to fill our tank. We thought how much could we really save for just one night? Well, then, another update is about our relocation. As per now, we are still awaiting confirmation on remuneration package. Hubby has been in negotiation with Satyam Singapore, so we hope everything will work out for the best. Adam Hakeem has his own passport now, and I've also renewed mine. My maid....has not arrived! I've had a row with my agent regarding her delay. And she kept giving me excuses.What ticked me off was when I caught her lying. This one day, where she promised (like after 10 promises) to send my maid, I waited patiently at home, until evening. No calls, nothing. I called her and asked her whether she's sending the maid to me. This time ( yes, it wasn't the first time she gave me lame excuses, like one of her maid got raped, and she was in the police station from morning till nite?gila ke apa?) she said she was in the immigration office, queuing to pick up my maid's passport AT 4.40 p.m?!! I questioned her directly, "I know right now immigration office is closed, so where again are u at?". She was caught off guard because she probably didn't notice it was already after 4 p.m. And started giving me some other lame F&*#&#& excuses. That was it. I lost it! Above everything, I just hate liars and cheats. So, I decided to take the matter further and canceled her service. I demanded for my refund and she said she'd give it back in a week. Well, I really don't want to go on and on about this, because I get really pissed off even thinking bout her. I figured out she was a con. She first told me that she had proper documents for my supposed to be maid, but a week later she said she had to request for a working permit after the maid is being sent. What ever she's doing, I hope that other ppl won't get conned by this woman. If anyone from this agency called APZ ( I wouldn't want to put her full name here) but the initials are on her card, make sure u be careful. My family and I almost lodge a police report after she started to delay and gave more excuses to refund our deposit. But only after we told her we'd lodge a report that she refunded our money. Well, actually, apart from money being the issue, I was more saddened and upset by the fact that a Malay woman had lied and conned me. I don't understand why some people had to lie to make a living? Well, its her lost, not mine. She just lost a customer and more. Anyways, I've learned my lesson. I think next time I should listen more to my intuitions. Well, I shall end my blog here as My Lil Adam Hakeem is already awake...and he needs my full attention..as always. :)

Change Of Plan

Well, it seems like there would be a change of plan in our life. At first, when hubby got the job in Cyber, we thought he would be located in Bank Negara KL, and now it happens that his company is more interested in sending him abroad! At first, it was Singapore. I was content with relocating to Sing because I thought it was only 4 hours drive away (if we speed at 130 mph), no language barrier, culture and food is similar and what not. But now, they want to send him to Aussie. Well, ofcourse its not confirmed yet, but anyhow I told hubby as long as we don't have to separate with each other, Adam and I will follow him anywhere he goes. So now, we're just praying that everything will go well for us. Recently, we've decided to take a maid in to help my mom and I around the house hold chores. And we've been planning on buying a house since last year. As they say, you can plan all you want, but in the end, Allah decides everything for you. So for now, hubby and I are just praying that whatever the future holds for us, we will be together.

Counting days...

Hi all, I haven't been blogging for quite some time. I have been busy as usual with my little one but also didn't really have the mood to blog. Today however, I felt free enough to jot down a few thoughts on my tired mind. Tired mind I say because I am currently feeling that the days are moving too slow. Normally it doesn't feel this way. Anyways, hubby and I have decided to join the gym recently as a time out for both of us from the daily hassle of life. It sure feels good to get myself exercising again after quite some time. We also decided that we needed to spend our time alone without Adam around, not that he's a nuisance or anything, because each and every time we do go out on a date or anything, all we talk about is our Adam! I guess thats part of being parents. That's why hubby really doesn't like it when we have to leave our little precious at mum's. But then, we DO need to spend time alone. And it has been working! For a month now, we slowly tried leaving Adam at mum's place for about 2-3 hours and he doesn't really bother. Thank God! That's settled. As for hubby, he finally got the job he wanted so badly...the one in Cyberjaya. But the good part is, he doesn't have to travel back and forth as he is being placed in Bank Negara in KL. Alhamdulillah, seems like Allah has everything nicely planned for us. I'm thankful to Allah and all his Rezeki that He has given to us. As for today, I just got back from grocery shopping and still thinks the day is moving too slow. Can't wait to go to PD this weekend with my family for a short getaway. Adam really loves the beach. Remembering back when we took him to Redang last year when he was 6 months, he didn't really have a problem dipping in the sea with both of us :) He truly is a water baby...hahaha. Well, I am still planning to go to Perhentian anytime this year. Hopefully hubby can take some time out on our anniversary in June to go somewhere :D 4 year anniversary! How cool is that? And I'm still loving my hubby...:)

My knight and shining armour...

I perceive my husband as my knight and shining armour. No, he didn't come riding on a horse with his sword by his side..hehe. But he came at the time when I needed salvation and strength. I thought he was the most handsome person I've ever seen when I first saw him. Call me corny, but it was love at first sight! Yes, it was. And until this day I am still very much in love with him. To those who know me well would agree that he is one of the best choice I've made in life so far! I used to be a very impatient person, and he taught me to become more patient. My husband taught me how to love again unconditionally. He was perfect for me. I knew back then, he was the one. And he always will be. I thank you hubby for being there for me, for loving me unconditionally, for your patience and tolerance. I can be a little prissy sometimes...I know. Thank you for understanding me. I pray and hope our love will always be blessed by Allah. Forever loving you, my perfect man!

Just one of those days...

Just one of those days when a girl goes through, when I'm angry inside and wanna take it out on you! Have you girls out there ever felt blue out of a sudden. This minute you feel chirpy and happy and the other second you feel like screaming your heart out? Hormones, u say? I agree, but how powerful could hormone changes really affect your mood. I'm usually not the moody type. I'm temperamental sometimes but not always moody. I guess stress is the word lah. Lately, I've been feeling stressed out. And I'm not really sure why? The more I think about it the more I can't figure out why I'm stressed. Tired yes, out of taking care of my lil one, but it's not really that bad. My Adam is active but he's not the fussy making tantrums type...at least not all the time. Most of the time he is easy to take care of. But still, he doesn't stress me out to this extent. I just had my period so it couldn't be PMS. Sometimes, I feel the need to be understood without being questioned and sometimes I feel the need to be asked why without giving an answer. Do I make sense now? Well, it doesn't matter because this is is just one of those days where I like to be left alone and to be on my own. Just a phase I hope....

I'm not Perfect!

I am not perfect! Making mistakes is part of being human. I thought about all the ones I made in the past. Well, I figured that I wouldn't be here today if I didn't go through all the experiences I had in the past. So, I learn. Learn from my mistakes. I'm still learning. I thought it wouldn't be any good to regret the things that we had done. To those who knew me long ago, would dare say I have changed a lot. Well, I believe in change. I hate being stagnant. My past mistakes? Too many to mention. Lets just say I've been there done that. Well, almost...As a teenager, I was a stubborn and rebellious girl, at some point, wild! Sneaking out late nights without my parents permission, changing boyfriends every year....hmm...the &%$#ed up years, the gigs, the parties, clubs...well, those are just a few to mention. Bottom line, not all of them were bad experiences and mistakes. Some are nice memories to remember and friends to keep forever :) Now that I have become a mom, my life has changed. My point of view has changed. My priority has changed. I worry:) I know to worry is part of being a mom. I worry for my son. On account of my past, I'm not really a role model he can follow :) But at least, I can be there for him when he is in a bad situation. I can teach him the right from the wrong. And the rest is his call. Like what my parents taught me. You know whats right and whats wrong. You choose. Well, I really respect and adore my mom. I know she had a really rough time with me when I was younger. I love you ma. Thanks for not giving up on me. One thing I've learned for sure is, I will never give up. I believe in 2nd chances. Hell, I believe in all the chances you can get before you rest in peace. Its really up to you. My late grandfather used to say,"You can correct everything you do while you are still alive, you can solve any problems in this world if you are still breathing, because when you die, thats it. No more chances!" I'll stick to that. I will do my best to become a better person. I know I'm bound to make mistakes again.But I'll learn. I pray that Allah will guide me and my family to the right path. Amin.

Headache!

Arrghh today I woke up with a throbbing pain in my head and back! I guess its time for me to de stress la kan hubby :) I hope we get to stick to our plan on going somewhere end of this month. Well, at least a trip to spa for me please please :) I actually wondered whoever said being a home wife is so much relaxing than going to work? It is very tiring and stressful too. So hands up to working moms out there. I really don't know how you do it. But I know I'm knocked out each time I go to bed every night! Well, the thing is my Adam Hakeem is at the stage where he is walking..no running everywhere! And he just doesn't listen...He loves the idea of being free and that he can go wherever he wants without anyone's help. I bet all the stay at home moms understand where I am getting at. I am not complaining really just releasing some of my thoughts :) I like the fact that he is an active healthy little boy who likes to mess up his shirt every time I feed him. I guess its part of growing up, messing up...hehehe. Well, now I understand literally why our Rasulullah told us to respect our mom like times 3! If only I knew how difficult it is to raise a human being. And I'm not even half way through! Hahah..Well I think thats the fun part. Who knows what lays ahead, counting from my own experience...I hope my son tak ikut sangat la my perangai! If not, I know I'm going to have a helluva time....My mom like to say to me...Now u know la how I felt! OMG, is that like a curse or something? hehehe...I know I was a pain in the butt la mum...But really lets pray that our little beloved Adam will grow up well and be a good boy:) hehehehe. Mother's prayers always help. I pray and hope Allah will take care of our family and help me raise my son to become a good man, InsyaAllah.

Cyber oh Cyber...

Well, i havent been blogging lately...been busy with hubby being ill then myself and my baby Adam. Yesterday, hubby and I drove all the way to Cyberjaya trying to test this new route that they say only took 15 mins to Cyber from KL. Well, I thought the trip wasn't that bad and no...it didnt really took 15 mins but more to reach Cyber..The reason we went all the way was because Hubby is supposedly about to get this new job up in Cyber and we wanted to know whether its okay to travel back and forth or whether we wanted to move there altogether..Hmm..until today we are still undecided maybe because there's no finalization yet on whether hubby really got the job or not...kekeke. And on another note, we have mama to consider. She works in Selayang Hospital and kesian pulak if she has to travel far to her workplace. Well, either way I don't mind, nak pindah ke tanak ke...As long as its good for everybody. Right now...i'm more concerned on nak kena tinggal end of this month! My family is going to Melbourne for a short holiday and I can't imagine doing everything all by myself without my mom's help...Hmmm memang anak manja la...What to do...Its time to grow up and learn i guess..to be more independent.. kekeke..Oh well, we'll see how it goes nanti :)

I want it all!

I remember a rap song by Warren G i think, that said I want it all, big house, big cars, diamond rings? ( i don't really remember all the lyrics though hehe ) but something about wanting it all....And i thought who wouldn't want it all? I'd be lying if I ever said i didn't want a nice house, cool car and that nice Gucci bag i saw the other day :) Coming from a middle class family, I would say that i'm grateful that I had my fair share of luxury while growing up. I remember abah used to take us on holidays in nice hotels, the good food in fancy restaurants, the overseas trip, the nice clothes and etc etc...depends on how you define luxury lah...but at the time, i thought i was the happiest little girl alive! And now that i'm married to a humble hardworking loving man, my hubby, I still get my fair deal of luxury, trips to spa, holidays and all that. Well, my point here is in the end,what does really matter? Personally, I think everybody is searching for happiness, and it varies from one person to the other. To me, happiness is not just material needs. I think everybody knows that. But a lot of people today are superficial. They define themselves with having an expensive car or a pocket full of cash. Well, ofcourse expensive things are nice to have :) But it doesn't define you as a person. What defines me is my personality, my Iman and how I evolve and become a better person. Its a struggle nowadays I would say to stay put to your principals and stay true to yourself. We are only human after all. Well, u decide. Because in the end, its your opinion of yourself that matters most.

Silence is golden

I recently cracked open a fortune cookie and the saying on a piece of paper that came out from it was, "Speech is silver, silence is golden". Apparently, the saying happened to coincide with what is going on in my life right now. I am going through an ordeal that is testing me in so many ways. I've decided that silence IS golden. And the more silent I am, the more I get to find out the truth. Its funny how life goes around your back and surprise you. Only right now, the truth hurts. I wished I didn't really found out the truth. I wished I was safely tucked in my cave away from all the harshness of the world...but then again a wise man told me that whats the point in living if there is no life? Well, if only i knew that life would be so kind? What ever is going in my life right now, i know for a fact that God IS Great! And that we are all HIS humble servant. I pray to Allah that everything that is going on in my life right now would end in a good way...InsyaAllah.

Congratulations Hisham and Zura!

I would like to congratulate one of our good friend Hisham who finally (kan Isham) got married to his beautiful bride Zura. Yeay! Another one of our friend has joined the club :) First it was Diba and Atan, now Hisham and Zura, i wonder who would be next? hehe...Well, I really hope everyone is happy and content with their lives, married or not. Hubby and I attended both weddings,Zura's side and Hisham's. Both weddings were beautiful. Usually, after attending a wedding, hubby and I always reminisce on our wedding. Teringatla everything from the wedding preparation, the flowers, the sweet smell, i don't know why but i always associate a smell with an event :) It happens to be a habit of mine. To look back and see how far we have gone, it seems impossible at the time to even think of it. When I first met hubby, I mean set eyes on him, I was someone else's gf at the time and never have i imagined that one day I would be his wife! After we dated, we partied most of the time and never thought of getting married and so...until a year...we finally felt it was our time to tie the knot. Reason, why wait? We were very much in love, we understood and compromised each other well, we can't seem to take a break from each other (balik kerja can still go lepak together until late nites), I mean go get married already...hahahha...so i said to him "Lets get marriedlah", and he simply replied "Ok". Just like dat. The next day, we went ring searching for our engagement and all fell into place soon after. And today, here we are, still very much in love and blessed with an adorable naughty son....Who would have thought? I never did..Well, as for our newly wed couples...One day both of you are going to look back and laugh at the memories that you have made and reminisce and appreciate it. I pray that both of you and all the married couple stay happy and enjoy every moment you have with your partner. A relationship, I always say to my hubby, is like a plant. U need to water it, nurture it and take care of it or it will fade away. I love the idea of romance and will try in every way to be romantic with hubby (eventhough its impossible sometimes with Adam around) hehe, but we try. I do believe being in love is relaxing and refreshing to the mind. I love my hubby so very much. And I wouldn't trade anyone else or anything. Hubby, thank you for loving me always :) I will be yours forever!

Happy New Year 2008

Happy New Year 2008 everyone! Time really pass u by fast, i mean way too fast. My lil angel Adam has turned 1 on 8th Dec 2007. His first birthday party was a blast :) Invitations were sent out mostly to family members and closest friends with lil kids...Adam was a happy lil boy with lots of pressies from everyone. After the party was over, hubby and I was relieved cuz the planning and preparation was tiring and time consuming. For a first birthday party, well i would say not bad :) Everybody went home happy that day. The nite of his birthday he started to walk properly and more confidently, he has been trying for a week. Finally! My lil boy can walk:) Sedih ok...i soon realized my baby dah besar...hehe...And on New Years Eve, my family decided to have a barbecue party attended by my next door neighbour who happens to be my aunt's family as well. Juz a simple barbecue party with an early birthday cake surprise for my mom from my cousins thanks Farid and Faz and not forgetting lil Ariana:), (yes my mom's birthday happens to fall on 1st Jan).p On my mom's birthday, there were lots of pressies given early in the morning ( a tradition of the family on birthdays). Mom was happy and we later had lunch at this chinese muslim restaurant, i forgot its name though...:) But the food was delicious...we all enjoyed lunch and headed home afterwards. As for now, i am still searching for a place to send Adam for his playschool class...Tumble Tots or Gymboree...Gymboree i heard is far better in terms of environment and all...but its sooo far from my place....Will decide soon...Lovin my life:)